If i stayed, I only be in your way....

All of the days, out of all of the moments, why must it be now? Huh? Ive spent the whole day with you, knowing well that hey, I'm getting somewhere here. Slowly, I would begin accept the friends zone. I was being comfortable with being just friends. Slowly. But, why this shit must happen now? I knew it would happen after exams,but at least I have time to be able to accept 100%. I could run away, being with my best friends, enjoying the time of our lives. I will not think of us at all. I will not get hurt by seeing you with him, holding hands, cuddling or whatsoever. Know, those thoughts are just keep rambling in my mind every single time. Whenever im about to go to sleep, showering or even eating. For me to run away from reality is for me to study. Thats the only thing that keep my mind of things. Ive got no one else to turn to now. I cant express the feeling that im feeling to anyone. All my best friends are having exams and its pretty selfish to ask them to spent some extra time talking to me. Comforting me or whatsoever.

It sucks big time. Me falling for her. Its been wrong for me right from the start. I didnt pursue it in the first place,so why should I be feeling this way? I only wish that I was pure ABC, born here, stayed here, then I might have a shot. I knew it. That is what killing me the most. You know if only this would happen, she would be in your hands right now. But im not. You were a above me right from the start. I wished I would have never fall for you. Life would be easier than that.

There is only one thing left for me. Time for me to leave slowly. I cant see them together right now. I know, if i stayed, i would be only be your way. So i'll go, but I know i think of you every step the way. Bittersweet memories, is only what im taking with me. I had a few good memories with you. The night where we just talked till in the morning, the talked we had outside the lecturers room, the talked we had when we were in the library, the night of your bday. The talked we had about us. The night where you cried just because of me. Those were the sweetest memories. I was touched. I appreciated it. For once, i felt as though, i was being appreciated so much. No one ever cried because of me. I know that I mean a lot to you. But I cant stay. I would only be hurting you or even myself. So please dont cry like you did last time. Its only hurting the both of us. So please understand. Please.

I hope life treat you kind and i hope that you have all you dreamed of. You deserved it. You were always ambitious, nice, kind and a model person of anyone. You were the one that above all of this before. You deserved a great guy. I wish you joy and happiness and above all of this, I wished you love. You just deserved it. Its a pity that we could never work out. Its been great, but fate has other plans for me.