Alone

I hate being alone with no one around me.Yes,there is chatting but still i miss hang around with real people who i adore most. God, i just miss being back in msia.Urgh,is just tearing me apart. Tulah,sape suruh tak study kuat2 dulu.Yea but still it would be the same as i would me missing the same group. I did the biggest mistake of my life.I did.I tried to denied so many times and keep telling myself no everything is goin to be ok.I cant do it anymore.I just cant. Is not going to be ok.I should have gone to ANU and i still regret it till today even though it has been over a year. The decision suppose to make me stronger but i never know that this is goin to be damn hard.Is difficult as going to uni as a starnger.No one to talk to.Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate that feeling i really do.Im no longer in groups as i used to now im jsut flying solo.Sigh,till the day that i can look back saying that i was happy in sydney, i would just be in that little corner with a tearing heart.

Is about time i visit this graveyard...Since the holidays,i was guilty as charge for having writting entries half heartedly...Hehe...Im just lazy cause there are so many other things to do while back in msia.Frens to hang out with,people to visit,places to eat(i freaking gain 4 kg)and definetely ball to keep(i mean futsal lar as i play goalie)Overall,it has been a good period cause catching up with frens although some people i have just managed to see once.Got to say,the highlight of the holiday was futsal,hanging out with my neighbours and going to genting main air terjun.That was definetely cool.Oh yea,i tried shisa as well...(bad boy) But the main suprise was how my parents reacted towards me,they let me go out at night.Damn suprised.I still hope they offer that service everytime i go back.Hehe...

Anyway,now living on the land down under,is been fine. As usual,tutorials fulls with those arrogant people who cant make friends with and people trying to show off that their smart.I get it but u dont need to asnwer every freaking question! But the most annoying thing is got to be this,slept at 3 last night and at freaking 6 o'clock neighbours from top was f*cking hammering something and drilling something.I mean wtf,is 6 am? You bastard.Cant wait like later? So what i did was get my i pod and listen to the max as songs sounds nicer that that hammering sound. There it goes again at least now is 11.Is acceptable but not 6 am u bitch.

Feels like playing ps2,tada~~~