The grass will always be greener on this side.

For 2 years, ive been suffering. 2 years. 2 god damn long years. Regretting that i went to University of Sydney and not Australia National University. I regret for not going with my instinct which keep telling me that my destiny is in ANU. Instead, i went with other people's instinct which was most of it from my dad forcing as he has the resources thus control over my future. He says that you wont be learning anything if u go to anu. You'll be in your comfort zone. I'll just would be depending on them. With a heavy heart i went to sydney. One of the top rated places in the world. Entering a uni top 25 in the whole world.

For 2 years, i hated uni. For 2 years I hated every bit. For 2 years I had no one that was closed to me like wafi and hana. People to hang out with. People to share my sadness and joy with. I never ate alone in kdu and which turn out to be a daily routine in my uni life. How much change it has been. From to one of the most out going person in the group to someone that people barely know. I have been pull to a lower level. I felt lonely. I felt as though i had no one around me even though there are tons of people. I was devastated even more when i realise that anu the place that i wanted to go was even friendlier environment. I like it there. I love it there. I regret not going to anu as there is a lot of nice people there that i could click with instead of none in sydney.

For 2 years, after 2 years, 2 long years, after a heartbreak, friends turn back on me, I chased out my own housemate, argued with a lot of people, involve with a girl whose was pregnant by my own friend, i finally can say, i finally,finally finally can say, Im happy. I am. I finally found a group where i can hang around with. Where i felt im closest. I tell you honestly, it isnt easy to be where i am now. But, i did it, getting out of my comfort zone and be where i am suppose to be. I finally has a sense of belonging. Thanks to people who made my life where i am now. Im finally at the place where i am suppose to be.