Housemates and friends

Have you ever in a position where you would stuck between your self interest and what is best for your friends.Pretty much,who would you want to satisfy.Urself or your friends? All this while i always put my friends ahead of me.Call me foolish,stupid or whatever.I dont care.I am the way i am. Maybe the word selfish was never occur to me.You see, Im not bragging here but 4 teams want me to play keeper futsal for their team.There one where is seriously good all round and my friends.2 options. I really want to win this tourney.Losing is not acceptable. I seriously do want to win. But i realise that my team is not good enough to win.It is never is. I just doesnt want to say out loud but seriously,my team is just not good enough.I do have good players,but there isnt any lack in depth.Example, a player who just doesnt pass and when he does the oppurtanity is gone.Another player is just not good enough. Im not saying im the best keeper that i deserve to be with the best team,but for once,i want to win something.All my life, ive been second for 7 times,semi finalist 3 times,First? None.Nope.Zit.Nada.Sigh,maybe its time i put myself first before the team.Ill do that but i look at the team performance this time around. If it goes wrong,ill blame myself.

On the contrary, my housemate is seriously getting on my nerved. I just god damn dont know how long till i can survive. Another couple of months.God please,i just wish i could move out now.Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!