Thoughts of a boy

Im not one of them nor one of us

Is just a place to let my feelings go and please please do not worry much about it.
:D

As i woke up in the morning,realising that im not one of them or any one of us. Im in the middle. Is kind of a jack of all trades but comes to specialty im none. The thing is that i might have close friends here and there,but comes to best friend,none. No one really remembers me as their part of group and hell,i dont blame them. Im not physically there.So thus,is a bit hard since a lot of effort just to call and etc,so i dont blame them.But,then which group i belong to?If not them,then who?People here?Hell,we dont even go to the same university but still,we could be best friends.But,again the same problem,they dont remembers me when doing stuff. So how what could i do just to be remembered.I know i cant be a better friend that I am now cause ive been trying my best to be a very good friend.Is just that all those effort just gone to waste. Im not blaming anyone or anything but me.And please,im begging you,dont treat me with any sympathy or change the way you treating me. Is just that,to be honest,i still dont find the group where i trully belong.

-Fadzrul signing out-

Ski trip

Haha...this was my friends skiing in snowmy mountain last winter...came across while looking pictures from canberra trip during winter...god,it was one hell of a time...yg takleh belah when my friends said record him skiing saying org gempak in the end,dia yg jatuh...hilarrious...

F*cking bad day

Yea,i know is fasting but still im so f*cking piss.Dont know why,just feels like to punch someone ie ended up punching the freaking wall. Well,is just a f*cking bad day.Feels like scream on top of my voice.ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
God knows why im so f*cking moody right now,maybe low in sugar.But still,come on,even on normal days everything just f*cking wrong,im pissed.EVERYTHING IS F*CKING WRONG.Went to groceries and suffered.Wtf,plastic broken in right middle of the road.What THE F*CK wei.ILL NEVER DO FREAKING GROCERIES AGAIN!!!.And you know what,my left hand is twisted i think due to carry heavy stuff,feels pain everytime i move it. Then,went to visit my friend in hospital due to appendix which two people in 2 days.Is it the appendix week?Anyway he just came out from operation and couldnt talk to him.Saw him weak.Anyway allhamdulliah cause he is alright now but the appendix he has is a rare one and actually the life treatining one.Nasib baik,dia selamat now.Anyway,after hospital,decided to buy dinner since is so near.Check my wallet,no money due to the stupid groceries.No atm machine and decided to cash out.Penat2 beli travel ten yg unnecessary suddenly the guys said no cash out.F*ck so decided go back and order deliver.Then,the guys said no deliver until 6.30.WTF.So im freaking lazy to walk and bukak is so freaking near.Just wait till 6.30.

Conclusion,dont buy groceries.

Did i made a correct decision?

Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did i just did a wise decision?By not going to canberra to see the 2 most important person in my life beside family just because i coulnt really hang out with them when i go to canberra.It sucks!!! Mula2 pikir tak nak ah sebab tak lepak sangat ngan dia org sebab bz but then now,feels like crap. God,i have been so emo for the past two days and i dont even know whats going on. Nowadays asyik layan lagu2 jiwang je.Kenapa!!!! I dont like this feeling!!!! Argh!!!!!!!!! Feels like emotional break down. The last time was like this is the after effects of redang which i fall for somebody.Tapi,kat coogee minat sape lak?Sigh,sengal tul ngan pasrahnya!!!!!!

MERDEKA!!!!! Eh,bukan dah lalu ke?

WHEEEEE!!!! Scream with me...Is the holidays.Finally,i deserved a break a while.What a hectic 3 weeks it has been. Overall with the exam was i felt that wow,i can do.Guess that is the reward for being hardworking. Celebrated holidays with the best fashion possible.Go to the beach have bbq and swimming.Playing with waves.Is damn cool as aussie here,they have great waves.Is just fantastic. It reminds me of redang but i think this period is better. But one thing was missing, beach volleyball. Played that in redang and it was priceless.

Sigh,miss those days. Speaking of missing, the homesick begin to kick me in slowly. I told myself that i will never be homesick as back in msia, no freedorm as curfue is at 7.Haha,usually ill write wt* but since fasting,words have been cut.Lol.Anyway,yea and im not that close with parents anyway. Guess is just the guy kind of thing. I thought to myslef ill be here for 2 years and then baru balik.But cantlah,missing my bed too much.I even forget how my house looks like. My beloved wife,yea wife which is my car.Haha. God,i miss my car so much. Sigh, and definitely my frens in msia.Sigh,getting more homesick but wait a minute,is not too long more.Muahahaha.


My beloved car,optra 5.Miss you so much

Cause u had a bad day

U know it is going to be bad day when:

1. You spent all your sleeping time doing assignments
2. You woke up at 6 in the morning even though you are lacking of sleep
3. You felt tired when woke up and tried go back to sleep for an hour
4. When u just get out of the house and saw 3,THREE buses that u need to go to uni pass by right in front of your eyes.
5. You reach to uni and suddenly realise that the assignment you SPENT the whole night doing left at home. Need to miss class taking the assignemnt back
6. Waiting for 15 minutes for bus
7. Suddenly, the bus driver said u guys need to change bus as this bus having problems thus next bus is coming in 10 minutes. The house is just right on top of the hill
8. Decided to walk and while walking saw the bus supposedly 10 minutes pass you by
9. Get the assignemtn and realise that next bus is in half an hour
10. When printing your assignemt,there is a bitch using PRINTING only use to check her mail and reading the scholarship offers
11. Waiting for 10 minutes for her
12. She decided to print and tried to write the file to the cd. Bitch,is a com for printing,not ur personal computer.
13. Decided to go to the other one, and same thing happen. One bithc cheking her mail. Thank god she was quick
14. Went to tutorial and realise that you did the wrong question. Of all the odds, the tutor ask the question that same question
15. Thats all folks!!!!!

Assignments

Sigh...just got back my result for assignments.Damn,is always like this.Assignments marks always brings me down.My exam result would always be credit or better,when it come to assignments,damn just pass border line aka cukup2 makan.Damn ah.Im just not the type of doing assignemtns.THey always brings me down to pass.Argh!!!!! Is the a guidebook doing assignments for dummies?

Happy birthday to me

Haha...Anyway for those who sent me a card,wish me a birthday...thanks u guys...and for who u dont,dont worry im not mad or sad or etc...haha..well so far cant really celebrate my birthday as i got test at 10 later..sux man..but last saturday was out with my uncles..had a fantastic seafood..and of course a birthday cake...for once in my life...i do not know what to wish for...im happy with everything...maybe the losing weight part...haha..everything else...im just glad with my life...the friends im hanging out with,a better result in studies compare to last semester,gf?Haha...nah,happy being single.I saw few of my friends who are in relationship and there isnt any freedorm..cant hang out,cant dota till the wee hours of morning,every single hour must send her a message..etc..it sux..i got my own life...later we or im gonna get married...er i HOPE...going to spend the rest of my life with her.SO why wanna start now...now we should enjoy life being single.Anyway,better get back on study..wish me luck....

In keynesians point of view,an increase in base money would incease the fixed money,a fall in interest rate and increase the demand for money.However,there is the feedback effect.....

random thoughts

Is just a thought,but I realise something.Since I step in the land down under,the only thing that i learn others than uni,is being more malay.Huh,wth,how can it be?I dont know,is just the people that we hang around.I realise that most of my friends are malay,and is not a kinda bad thing,but u fly over 10,000 miles to be with malays???Haha,thank god that in my batch and my course,im the only malay speaking oriented.So with them,i speak english.If not,hell,i became more malay than ever.Go aussie to learn malay.Is hilarious.To think about it,I learn the word sengal,pasrah and etc while was here.I know the existense of the word but never used it.Is just hilarious.This is the common problem among our local sponser kids.We should hang around with aussies,not malay.We should change our attitude.Is not a bad thing hang with malays,is just we are here to learn their culture,not being a better malay. Guess,the world has been turn upside down...

Through thick and thin,ill stay by your site

God,is monday already...it sucks man...weekend just went through just like that...as i expected...saturday met with the mustafa guy which i dont even know who the hell is he..since im not a fan of politics....and sunday was the comepetition that ive been waiting for a while...well,i actually had few teams offer me to keep for them...team mun which was kind of all stars and my own close friends which is paan,azha,etc...to be honest,i want to win the comp,thus thought of joining mun.However,i stayed loyal with my bunch of friends.Arriving there,team mun had no keeper as joe was late.I said yea,sure why not.I made few decent saves and it was pure fun playing with them.It was just all flow.Then,my team was up.It didnt go as plan.Lost 6-1.Wtf?I was so pissed with my teammates.I was speechless.I have been disappointed by my own teammates.THere isnt anything i could do for the 6 goals.I know im big,but the goal is still bigger.I was so pissed and kind of regret that join their team.However,second game prove me wrong.Finally,they play futsal.Pure flow.It was nice but some bastard wasnt that happy and actually goes in to me while i catching for the ball.End up with a pretty sore knee,sore body and sore neck.What a bastard.

Then,the final game of the day came.Played with the favourites of the group.Full of westerners which is damn good at their techincal part of the game.However,we stoof firm.We match them with determination.I let go one goal first which kind of soft to me.But,my teammates scored 2.We were leading.They keep on pressuring us,i have to make at least 5 magnificent saves which was kind of make the spectators cheers.But,with all due respect to them,they somehow find a equaliser which i could do nothing regarding it.It was deflection.Hate those kind of goals.At the end of day,end up with being a drwa.Next,we need to win and hope the fav lose.Kinda hard.However,i might actually make my name there as a lot of people kind of praise me of good keeping especially from the opponent team.There once where I actually have sitted and some guy says fantastic keeping you have there.I was like,wow,i felt honoured.Well,one more game.There is still 30 minutes to determine our destiny.We can do win this.

P:S Sorry about the boring post if u werent a football fan.Hehe,i just want to remember this awesome day.Kalau tak percaya im good,can go to my friendster..haha

among other things i should BE doin....

Yea,yea,i know i got a lot work to do..but still,im not a robot :D...anyway,just finished vacumming the house..i hate vacumming here...carpet sux man...is harder to vacumminng(is there such word?)...prefer the old marble place..guess wont be logic for aussies here as it would get very extreemmly cold during winter...anyway,as goin through peoples blog...found one cool movie..yes,yaya....i know u reading this...anyway,cool movie,good job :D...just find it funny when jaih and syahmi pegang tangan...haha...click here if wanna watch
Anyway,this weekend sure gonna just blow right in front of me...tomorrow there is futsal thing which im joining...havent played futsal in ages..beeing the golie >.<...well,so far the training has been alrgiht..anyway,just thinking about tactics for futsal now cause want to win man...sigh,got any ideas?

Uni life

Bapak ah...banyak gila kerja nak buat..exam this thursday,next week presentation,the week after next is presentation,test 15%,mid semester...walau...Aku baru budak first year!!!!!!!Matilah nanti.....dahlah cakap commerce rilek...bapak ah,matilah kalau aku buat engin....guess wont be blogging er....until 22 sep

My new look

Had the hair cut.Well first it was like this.Then it became like that...

Malam gema Merdeka

I knew u guys probably have read this....however,gonna upload some of the pics..hehe..wanted to lsat time but lazy..heeh






Kaki bola di syndey


Me and the friends in sydney who made me felt at home


This is the intro

Kenangan terindah

Check it out...it has some decent lyrics and awesome melody...memang boleh layan siot

Malam gema Merdeka

Dont bother to find me.Im not in there.However,somehow,i like this video due to friends that were in that video.

Malam gema Merdeka

Dari kejatuhan kota melaka,Kita bina Malaysia

I was suppose to blog yesterday however was busy chatting with an old fren of mine.Anyway get back to the topic.Malam Gema Merdeka.Ticket 35 dollars.However,the good moments that had was priceless.It was seriously worth every penny.Felt like was back in kdu.But,i hate to admit it,it was the best night of my life so far.Beating those redang moments,mkm,and even the graduation dinner.I felt home.I felt as though that this is my families now.True,those kdu moments was great,but what can i do now?Im not going to be with them anymore.They will not be there when i trully need someone to help me out.The point that im gonna make is,Sydney is my home now for the next 3 years.And with friends that i have now,life wouldnt be any sweeter.