The great number 18

Every good things must come to an end

Gosh,is nearly time to go back soon to the land down under which means a year has gone.Year review time i guess.Haha,2006 has not been such a great year but its alright. The downpoint was when i fail subjects.That was the most low and the highest must when i got my mid semester result and is a pity that i didnt able to maintain the consistency. Anyway,my holidays spend on hanging out with my futsal gangs.Everytime which involve my neighbours. I enjoy and somehow to be honest, they kind of like very close friends. THats y i hate go back msia cause somehow i used to live nicely and spoil then back to being normal in aus.Sigh,i wish i dont need to go back but again i do miss my gang there. Anyway,feel like sleeping now.Chow

IF i lie here

I don't quite know How to say How I feel Those three words

Gosh,been busy for the past few days.Well to be exact busy with hanging out with frens until wee hours in the morning.Tell me,have u guys ever go back house at 4 am in the morning for 5 nights in the row?Well i just broke my record.MAjorly first was my frens party then because of football and hanging out with frens.Surprisingly my parents are ok with it.NO major screaming coming out.Haha...but however,i did lose my mom trust last night.To go for 6 nights in the row is too much i guess.Futher more i didnt bring my keys thus need to press the bell at 4 am?Wtf you think i dumb? Better stay frens house and for that major screwed upside down left right center. Haha if tell what really happen even more.

Anyway,these few days i been listening to those pharase.Familiar? Hahaha,is from snow patrol. But the main point is what would you do if the girl has everything you ever wanted all your life and is the perfect criteria for you,would you let her slip away? I would say not but the thing is i most likely would do cause of past wounds.Guess i dont want to feel hurt again but sigh,i just dont want be hurt again.Is too painful. But i think is time for me to forget that wound and ready for new wound to be bleed

If I lay here If I just lay here Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Self pity

So often rather than not, people usually especially girls wrote something that made them look dumb (yaya,im not witting abt u) or feel like committing suicide etc Usually the person who cares most would be worried or comforting the person. But the thing is how do you know whether the person purposely do it to seek attention to themselves and always try to seek cheap feeling of being loved. The thing was I was one of those guys.Pretty much is because i was just a blind fool during that period(yes2 you guys know the story) but im just curious why does a person want to do that? Why more attention? You think you that pretty deserve that attention? Come on ah,im just sick seeing this stereotype of girls who wants to be loved.Stop being that way and moans about it.Instead try to solve it your own way.You have been wondering do you have friends,i would say yes u did have friends,the key words is did and you knows well why as well.If you just stop being an idiot and get on,there would be less people get irritated by you thus having more friends. Is that so hard?

Consistency is the key

Results are out.Im so not happy right now.My accounting which i wanted to get a hd but it didnt happen.Gosh,why does it always happen to me?I always fucking fail at the last hurdle.Argh!!!!! Im always not consistent,damn ah.Guess im just a big loser written down on the fore head.Well,another subject was law which i pass and i kinda thankfull for that.Cause that was the hardest paper and accounting was kinda easy to me and i screwed that up and fearing for law.Anyway,all i can say is im just one big dumb ass who is damn freaking cocky.I guess i didnt study enough for accounting to get a hd.Guess my sis and everyone was right, im just one big showbow who trying to be good but always in the end i just fall at the last hurdle. The rest of subjets are alright,all pass.Disappointing yes but at least pass.Urgh got to work harder next semester