Is not that you are dumb,is just that you never try your best, and if you did, the sky is yor limitI was brought up in a well educated family. My dad a phD holder, my mum did acturials studies and graduated and well,educated. When i was a small kid, according to my mom, i never read books.Instead,i tear them. Then, when i was in tadika,i was always hated to go there. Skip as often as i can thus leading to rotan session by my dad and i must say this,i cried. I didnt like my dad,i always prefer my mom. She always protect me. Buying whatever toys i want,even though it was expensive and the way i thank her is by destroying it. Then, when i was in primary. I never did homework. Just sleep. My mom found out and scolded me. My dad took all of my comics and keep it. I was sad. Exams come and i was like top 3. Haha...that was the easy days....upsr came,my mom thought me bm,maths and english. My dad thought me science. He never thought me,he lectures me. I never understand.Guess thats why i got 4A 1B which in trial, i got like B and C. Then,next was pmr. I never studied for pmr. Thats y maybe i got bad result. My dad lecture told me,you better buck up. With ur result,you cant even go to local universities. He was totaly embarass by my results,he seriously lectures me. Then,form 4 came. I did better. In whole form, i was top 20. But,i never change calss.I stuck with that idiot calss.Bad teachers who give up hope on you even if there is still time,thus spm came out and it was bad. My dad lectures me saying that come one ah roy,grow up. You not in primary school anymore where tomorrow exam tonight jsut study.
So far, all my achievements is a string of failures. Then came kdu, i did better. With a motivation to do well,i started well. But,first semester,i suck bad. I under estimate external. I thought it was easy as internal. For econs,i memoriesed everything. But when came to paper,i panic and gone. I even cried after that paper. I know i did my best. But because it was too hard,i panic and the whole thing gone. Somemore,econs i target A which the most credit units. I still remeber that day. I came back home,lying myslef at bed,just regretting and just cry myself to sleep. I saw my dad expression when he knows my first sem. He wasnt suprise.He just smile,saying owh,see never work hard again. Is kind of he was used to my failures. He keep saying that your time is up.Time to grow up ah roy. I saw his expression. I felt worse. I was so disappointed and keep saying to myself,roy no matter what,im going overseas next year. I worked hard,and increse my average. I was happy.From no hope to goin to uni syd. Cant enter unsw due to requirements but at least im able to go to uni syd.
Then,uni came. First semester result was bad. Too bad,my dad lecture me for an hour. He keep saying eh roy,whats wrong with you. Grow up ah. The thing is you not dumb or more stupid than ur sister, you just never tried your best. I never did.
Now,im with people who all their life have been succesfull. THere is a diff between me and them. But, i keep reminding myself,that no matter what, if you put your heart to in,you can do whatever you wan. Well,now im hoping that, this semester, things would be different and i hope, i could see my parens face proud of me.
