Guess im going back to msia....

Yeap,guess im coming back.You know why? Cause i f*cking failed my paper which was 49.One more mark,and i pass.Because of that,im going back to msia.Sigh,the thing is I seriously deserved to go back.Dont want to disappoint my parents again which something i had done over and over again.I dont know why but somehow,maybe im a failure.I did study,infact the hardest i had ever study for a paper.I guess this is A WELCOME TO UNI LIFE KID.No fun,just study.You somehow need to be consistent.I always thought commerce.IS just easy.Study masa study break enough.Like what my sis always does.But somehow,i didnt.Infact i did worse.Maybe is true all this while.My sis is smarter than me.I always see people manage to study last minute and did very well.I always target pass or credit.So i thought that i studied enought for it.But hell,i cant.I just realise that i dont do so well study last minute.Sigh,life sux big time.Guess dont need to argue about moving to canberra anything.But sometimes,think about it,is not fair.Why some people manage to study last minute and i cant.Maybe,i dont have the capacity of doin it.Sigh,once a great teacher of mine,said yea,he always wish also that like some of those geniouses where they can just study a bit.But remember,god is fair.You will always have an extra ability that others dont.Soon enough you will find yours. After 2 years,i still find nothing except the ps2.Thats the only thing that im good at.Sigh,maybe im destined to be a failure in the making.What the hell im goin to do with my life also i dont know.The thing is that im not scared that my parents scold me or anything.I dont care abt that.THe thing that im feeling now actually is the feeling of guilty towards my parents.At least,10 k fo aussie dollars are burn just like that.One months salary of my dad just go to drain.Well,why i never think this before?I did.But i always be that cokcy guy who thinks that im great that i can survive.I can always survive.Somehow somewhere i will survive.I always manage to survive.Cause my past result was bad in sense of an excellant parents but it was average.I dont mind average.I dont really bother to try.I had this conversation with my dad before.If you want,you can be the best cause i did it before.But,i just need to make sacrifices.I had too much fun and im too lazy.Well,is all done now.I cant do anything.Im just gonna do way better.At least end aussie life with a bang.