Life is unfair perhaps?

Sigh..........life is unfair.Yea,but truelah.There is nothing you can do.Well is all started with this idea....
*Flashback*Man,im bored.There is nothing to do.So i actually decided to go to canberra.Call wafi and everything was settle.Just need to ask permission.The dreadful moments comes.No.Why?I got nothing to do.....Still no.Then argue.True,dont fight with parents but is not fairlah.But need to fight for justice.I dont know,maybe that the way i am.Berani kerana benar,takut kerana salah.Sigh,end up making myself got scolded and mum cried.Sigh,is never a good moment to hear your mom cry.Sigh,wish never brought this thing up.But,but,but,is not fair.I dont know.Sigh,is all get back to the same things.Argue with parents.Sigh.....NO matter where i am,The freaking main reason why i go to Australia is actually to get away from parents.That is the COLD HARD TRUTH.Sometimes i just hate my life....Sigh...Nak study hard and get scholarship also no use.....End up parenst say,save moneylah,this and that.No point.I dont know,sometimes i just feels like run away or something.Argh!!!! But i know,running is not the answer.Is just goes worst.Sigh.....The thing is im just different.Im not like my sis or anything.I fight for my rights.Call it kurang hajar or wat,but maybe that just the way i meant to be.Well,i still have some sense ah not to just abandom them like that but somehow,they must learn to appreciate having me.Compare me with my cousin,hey im no worse than him.I dont go wild parties or anything.Hell,i dont even smoke or take drugs.Sigh.....life is not fair man.Life is like that.Memang feels like just screw it and just disappear.But tak pernah ada hati to do that.Too many people care for me.....Life sux.....I know that i am lucky to even have parents and everything but is just,sigh,i dont know.Maybe i am a bad guy.MAybe i am anak kurang ajar.Maybe i am just a sampah masyarakat.But it just the way i am.I cant do anything except change my character.Sigh,sorry.What meant to be,meant to be.Everything has plan out.Maybe i just live this live the way it meant to be.Doenst matter whether as a failure or success man.Sigh.......it does matter.Who i am kidding???But somehow i really really to try to be not anak kurang ajar cause somehow somehow,i got a feeling that im gonna run away from my parents.When i work and grew up,have my own family,ill probably wont be talking to my parents.Sigh,i grew up by every news that people abandon their parents and i was like my god,how selfsifh and thoughtless they can be?Is inhuman.But,maybe now i can noe how the child feels.But.but,but is still mean.Well,sometimes we act what we felt without thinking.Like now,i kinda damn piss with my parents....If you ask me,i probably like screw it.Who cares,just abandon them.But,still im not that bad..am I?I dont know but i still know that i have a heart and kinda sensitive to people.Never can tahan all the means things to do.I think i know now.Is because my character always believe in fighting back.Revenge.Like i treat people the same way they treat me.If someone ill-treated me why the hell should i care about him.Mampus dia ah.So maybe that apply to my parents as well.Maybe thats how i feel now.Sigh,im really in big trouble...Man,im inhuman.Sigh...i know like they the one who take care of me all this while....and this how i repay them...By going agaisnt them and abandon them?Sigh,this memang thoughtless.I hope,i hope this never happen cause I RATHER DIE THAN THAT HAPPENING.Argh!!!!!! But i need to understand.I never know how it feels to be a parents.But at least you can do is understandlah.That is all im asking.Understanding.Is that too much to ask.IS it?Argh!!!!!!!!!Im just emo right now.....Just wanna let everything go....All those hatreds.....Sigh....well is better than keep bottle it in.Well,thats how life are.Unpredictable and unfair...But one thing for sure,they do this is not because they dont want me to have fun or anything but is just what is best for me.I know but is my life and i decide how i live it.I know is good for me but hey cant they just understand?Is that too much to ask?Understanding....