Confused?Unsure?What can i do?

Hey blog....

Life was kinda busy for once in few months.Well,the weekend where i suppose go to canberra,was actually spent by spending time with my cousin and my uncles...Well.woke up on saturday mornig expecting there is nothing to do an just another ordinary day.However,there is plan made.well,my uncle invited my sis and i go to their house spend the weekend.So at first i went to central using bus and from there we took a train to the nearest train station and we walk.Sounds far ain it?Haha,yea cause my place is eastern suburb while theirs is erm...somewhere,not sure.But if use car like 2o minutes....so still far.....Anyway,when arrive took a drink and lepak...Then my cousin came back from work.So chatted with her a while then did some stuff and bla bla bla....dinner time...for the first time i eat at home cook food with rice.....Is been like wat a week since i eat rice???So there was seafood.Fried prawns,vietnamese salad which is quite nice and there is salmon and etc....Kinda a lot of food.Yummy,then we just watch some tv which is kinda kewl cause satelite tv....Watch alion vs predetor,butterflt effect which is kinda cool and confused...in the end,fall asleep while watching it...I was sleeping on the couch cause no place to stay,but they offer me a matress but i thik the couch was more confertable which it was.Had a nice sleep...Woke up and went to ikea to buy sofa for my sis apartment.Kinda cool.It was self assemble tough and just finished it just now.Kinda screwed uo a bit,sigh everything abt ikea is self assemble.Basket....even the tv was...sigh,in the end need to do on yourself....not bad man......Deserved a pat in the back.....

Sigh.......yesterday unpack stuff to msia hall..so kinda stay there but gonna stay here for a while cause easy to pay when startng next month....sigh,now when there is nohthing to do....is reminds me of her.....IS been a long time since i mention about her....the problem is i dont know whether i have feelings for her not.....this wasnt like last time where i was in love....this was macam kadang2 pikir kadang2 tak...last time 24 7 thiking when i was in love....im confused.......i really really do....now apart..even more confused.....sigh..i really really need to have frens now here and probably meet some girls...hehe....so far no cun chick yet in msia hall...rats.....all ugly...yuck...look like aunty only all of them...sigh....what to do.....live here....but anyway kinda look foward to stay in msia hall...looks nice cause the mathress is like home...missing my bed....anyway fuzzy signing out...chow

Just feel better

She said I feel stranded
And I can't tell anymore
If I'm coming or I'm going
It's not how I planed it
I've got the key to the door
But it just won't open

And I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
That life happens for a reason
I don't, I don't, I don't
It goes I never went before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing to just feel better

She said I need you to hold me
I'm a little far from the shore
And I'm afraid of sinking
You're the only one who knows me
And who doesn't ignore
That my soul is weeping

I know, I know, I know
Part of me says let it go
Everything must have it seasons
Round and round it goes
And every day's a one before
But this time, this time

I'm gonna try anything to just feels better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing to just feel better

I'm tired of holding on
To all things I ought to leave behind, yeah
It's really getting nowhere
I think I need a little help this time!

Yeah
[Guitar solo]

I'm gonna try anything to just feel better
Tell me what to do
You know I can't see through the haze around me
And I do anything to just feel better

And I can't find my way
God I need a change
And I do anything to just feel better
Any little thing to just feel better

Life is unfair perhaps?

Sigh..........life is unfair.Yea,but truelah.There is nothing you can do.Well is all started with this idea....
*Flashback*Man,im bored.There is nothing to do.So i actually decided to go to canberra.Call wafi and everything was settle.Just need to ask permission.The dreadful moments comes.No.Why?I got nothing to do.....Still no.Then argue.True,dont fight with parents but is not fairlah.But need to fight for justice.I dont know,maybe that the way i am.Berani kerana benar,takut kerana salah.Sigh,end up making myself got scolded and mum cried.Sigh,is never a good moment to hear your mom cry.Sigh,wish never brought this thing up.But,but,but,is not fair.I dont know.Sigh,is all get back to the same things.Argue with parents.Sigh.....NO matter where i am,The freaking main reason why i go to Australia is actually to get away from parents.That is the COLD HARD TRUTH.Sometimes i just hate my life....Sigh...Nak study hard and get scholarship also no use.....End up parenst say,save moneylah,this and that.No point.I dont know,sometimes i just feels like run away or something.Argh!!!! But i know,running is not the answer.Is just goes worst.Sigh.....The thing is im just different.Im not like my sis or anything.I fight for my rights.Call it kurang hajar or wat,but maybe that just the way i meant to be.Well,i still have some sense ah not to just abandom them like that but somehow,they must learn to appreciate having me.Compare me with my cousin,hey im no worse than him.I dont go wild parties or anything.Hell,i dont even smoke or take drugs.Sigh.....life is not fair man.Life is like that.Memang feels like just screw it and just disappear.But tak pernah ada hati to do that.Too many people care for me.....Life sux.....I know that i am lucky to even have parents and everything but is just,sigh,i dont know.Maybe i am a bad guy.MAybe i am anak kurang ajar.Maybe i am just a sampah masyarakat.But it just the way i am.I cant do anything except change my character.Sigh,sorry.What meant to be,meant to be.Everything has plan out.Maybe i just live this live the way it meant to be.Doenst matter whether as a failure or success man.Sigh.......it does matter.Who i am kidding???But somehow i really really to try to be not anak kurang ajar cause somehow somehow,i got a feeling that im gonna run away from my parents.When i work and grew up,have my own family,ill probably wont be talking to my parents.Sigh,i grew up by every news that people abandon their parents and i was like my god,how selfsifh and thoughtless they can be?Is inhuman.But,maybe now i can noe how the child feels.But.but,but is still mean.Well,sometimes we act what we felt without thinking.Like now,i kinda damn piss with my parents....If you ask me,i probably like screw it.Who cares,just abandon them.But,still im not that bad..am I?I dont know but i still know that i have a heart and kinda sensitive to people.Never can tahan all the means things to do.I think i know now.Is because my character always believe in fighting back.Revenge.Like i treat people the same way they treat me.If someone ill-treated me why the hell should i care about him.Mampus dia ah.So maybe that apply to my parents as well.Maybe thats how i feel now.Sigh,im really in big trouble...Man,im inhuman.Sigh...i know like they the one who take care of me all this while....and this how i repay them...By going agaisnt them and abandon them?Sigh,this memang thoughtless.I hope,i hope this never happen cause I RATHER DIE THAN THAT HAPPENING.Argh!!!!!! But i need to understand.I never know how it feels to be a parents.But at least you can do is understandlah.That is all im asking.Understanding.Is that too much to ask.IS it?Argh!!!!!!!!!Im just emo right now.....Just wanna let everything go....All those hatreds.....Sigh....well is better than keep bottle it in.Well,thats how life are.Unpredictable and unfair...But one thing for sure,they do this is not because they dont want me to have fun or anything but is just what is best for me.I know but is my life and i decide how i live it.I know is good for me but hey cant they just understand?Is that too much to ask?Understanding....

*yawn.

Morning blog.

*yawn....man damn sleepy.Woke up early to watch the clash of the titans between chelsea and barcelona.Well,my comment was the first half was dull like sierramas people play only but second half,wow,magnificent.It was the reason why i woke up,to see the flair of good football,played by the brilliantly ronaldinho and the young talent,messi.I was seriously impress by argentinian.This was the first time i saw him play.I know all the hype that he has been getting and i thought how good can he be.Trust me his good.He actually dance around the chelsea defender,sizziling and cook the chelsea defender like as if he was playing with kindergarden.Wow,really impress.This what is good football is about.Then there is ronaldihnho.Sigh,no word can describe him.He just wow,the way he dribble around people,my god england chances to win the world cup can destory by this fella.He is just amazing.No words.Anyway wanna catch breakfast now and probably go msia hall afterwards.C ya later..

My uni and the place where i suppose to stay....

Hey blog once again....
Wanted to update it yesterday but my com got problem ah.Shit,kena reformat cause think kena virus di.My antivirus ko.Shoot man,kena ask around ppl whether they know how to reformat.Tiew man.Sigh,anyway just got back from my uni.Saje nak scout around before my orientation tomorrow.Even tomorrow orientation is also for international students.So macam if lucky maybe can see one or two malaysian hopefully.So can macam lepak ngan dia ah.Well,hows my uni?Freaking far.Even though i kena naik bas once,is like 10 minutes to the place.Dahlah ada bukit.Actually can naik bus twice because after the last stop you can take anohter one whihc go straight to the u.But freaking expensive ah.BAsket sydney.Bas fare also doesnt give any subsidies to the students.Sigh,well at least good excersice for me.Yeah,can burn fat for free man.Whoppie!!!!Haha.Then there is the place where i suppose to stay for the rest of the year which is malaysian hall.Erm,my comment about is that the place is okayah.But all like seniors ,yang semua masuk same time,so is kinda to break through to be friends with them although they all are my sis friends.Semua macam tak best je.Sigh,really miss my friedns.Damn lonely man sometimes but these days okaylah.Taklah emo sangat but thank god to internet.CAn keep in touch with my best friend and my kdu peeps.Phew,taklah lonely sangat.A special thanks go to jason,weng hong,chap and ayie who actually seriously help me in my dark time these few days.Like from a rain storm to a sunshiny day.Haha,love them to bits.

Besides my uni and accomodation,people have been complaining about the dificultty of getting halal food.Haha,in sydney,is damn freaking easy.For these 3 past days,been eating burger,chips and fish.Nyam,nyam...Hahaha,siapa suruh duduk tempat ulu2.Muahahahahah.Anyway,guess that is about all.Fuzzy signing out.

Home..........

Hey blog....
now im officially in aussie.Yeah!!!!Hahaha....here where will i call home for the next 3 years.Sigh,is kinda lonely tonight.No frieds yet..Sigh,actually the most thing i miss now is my friends...*sob*....But hey,i enjoyed my first day.Well the thing is like this...I was expecting to lepak with the canberra guys cuz they came to sydney...So at first,eat lunch in taste of thai with my uncle and aunt.Had something like fried kay teow..Then went home do some stuff and straight away meet them...with my sis.She was the tour guidelah.HAha,i must say that i have fun my first day.....Was talking,lepaking and so on...Sigh,i really miss them....terubat sikitlah rindu kat dia org.Sigh,now is the time where i regret tha why the hell i go to sydney...*sob*...dont knowlah......hope can make new friends...but if still cant...die ah....maybe i end up going to canberra....i dont know....im kinda emo right now...cause yelah,first night dah sorang2.....but i need to adept it ah..this place is im kinda out of placed...they call it maybe culture shock...but i dont know...i dont miss home but i miss my friends......*sob*sigh,now where ill be complining why the hell i go sydney....but i do hope that soon that ill able to say that hey,sydney is fun man.....really glad that i go here......kinda emo fuzzy singing out....

Till end of time.......

48 hours to go....Time for me to walk down to a path where no one knows except god...How do i feel?Anxious,nervous,scared,excited and plenty more...But most of all is i cant wait to go.Cant wait to go to canberra and see my two best friend again..except maybe hana cause she never contact to me..sigh,dah lupakan i...wat to do?thats life man.Anyway,so many thigs to do..so little time..sigh,last night got sounded from dad cause thislah,thatlah abt my uni...sigh,cant he tell nicely ah...sigh,what to do..but truelah,is my fault.BUt he all worked up and packing all my things,my god...wanna pack my own he dont let me.Sigh,he sometimes think i need to grow up but look,what the hell is he doing?Anways,so many thigns to look up too.All those night outings,freedorm,hanging outs..Haha,but uni life is the one that i really look foward to.All those works again..haha,time to get b usy again...miss those times...too bored at home di....Sigh,time for me to go to next level..Am i prepared???Dont know but hope so.

But with all those feelings,there is some sadness that im gonna leave my friends....Some i know since standard 1,some form 1... Friends for 12 years and some 6 years...thats long man..All those sadness,laughters,problems,jokes and etc....i will remember.....for my friends...thanks for everything.......you are indeed a true friend......take care and god bless....fuzzy signing out in malaysia for the last time......

Reality is crashing to the floor.......

Hey bloggie,
there is som many freaking thigns lately.....One is that omfg,4 more days left....Wow,damn excited man....hell yeah!!!!Cant wait for FREEDORM.... YAHOO!!!Hahaha.....all those chicks....haha(yea right).....in honest opinion,probably gonna miss my friends,the food and family the most...Sigh,what to do?Thats life.

Anyway,there is so many freaking things that happen since lsat udpate.First of all,last friday went to ou to watch keeping mum with jason.Omg,is was so freaking disappointing..I cant even laugh at their "funny jokes".It was lame.....I wanted to watch big momma house but jason said he wanted to watch this movie so oklo,but seriously man,dont watch.Waste of money.Then we went to eat fish and co for the last time.Haha,gonna miss this but probably not cause gonna eat fish and chips there lot of times.

Then last night we had my farewell at chillis among our fitsal kakies..Haha,play a lot of futsal with them.Even yesterday we played in the morning.For the first time,i didnt become keeper.SO became defender.Wow,damn syok man,Scored one with was a tap in,hehe but my defending damn keng man.Slide here and there..block all the shots..My fav was actually when vincent was in front of me wanted to shoot di.So i slide behind and touch the ball and he was like wtf?He kick the bloody air.He was wondering what happen to the ball..That was damn nice.Really enjoyed being the sliding defender.Then second half,back to the super keeper :D,wanted to have cleen sheet but cant.So sad.BUt did have some magnifecent save.Then,lunch went to din sum in pan pac kl.Was so disappointing.IS not good anymore.*Sob*Waste of time only.Then went for a haircut.My hair now so bloody short.Cause is damn expensive there..Then,dinner time,had in ou.Was fun..ALl those laughter,jokes we made really make the event damn nice.Sigh,gonna miss them.Then,we went to play pool and foosball.Yea,we won for both of the matches.We are the champion of pool and the champion of fossball.Hahaha,great teamwork by me and theeban.Muahaha.....

Then,is the highlight of my weekend.Saturday...Is where i found out the truth.Is all started like an ordinary there.....Well,first i hard my doa selamat at my house.So macam,like see all my cousin and etc.I invited my juniors...hahaha,the batch for julylah.They just finsihed their exam.Anyway,someone told me a very interesting story abtr someone who i really care.All the truth comes out.Which actually is a love triangle but another different point of view.I was like shoot,but actually she didnt lie to me,just touch the surface.But now i know the whole stiry and kinda was suprised and was kinda hurt.Never know that the person is kinda like that.Sigh,all of likes kinda just go down the drain.But i cant actually blame her cause i kinda understand her situation.Sigh,really confused now...dont know what to do....anyway got to do some things b4 fly.SO anyway fazzy signing out....

Empty...

Wow,8 days left in my whole boring routine.Same old stuff,wake up,com,games,sleep,football,com and sleep.But few days left...Wow,i dont know but somehow i feel epmty these days.Im just like a robot who just do the same stuff over and over again.Samo2.Sigh,cant wait for me to experience a whole different enviroment...Freedorm,no parents....all the chicks :D...Haha,nolah,must be loyal :D....But anyways,im just bored...Argh.....all i know is know is i miss my friends.. Aiyayai,this is bad.DOnt know,is just sad.Maybe because i got nothign to do now,so just keep thinking about all the fun moments we had...I know this is pathetic.What to do?Maybe this is just the way i am.Anyway,im just too bored.Help me!!!!!!!Someone please help me form this boring period.Thats why i actually wanna leave now if can.I feel way better.Or even i can go canberra....:DThats desperate man.Nolah,im no that bad....But im just bored....Sigh.......Anyway im sorry that i wasted your time cause im writting rubbish.Guess there is no exciment in my life now...Fuz singing out

Till the day we meet again....

Sigh,finally,both of my best friend has left...Sigh,i was expecting to cry but didnt.Kinda suprise...But did ahve few tears when saw wafi and his families...So touch..Wafi menenagkan adiknya,"lah,jangan nangis,kejap je abang wafi ni pergi,nanti abang balik..."Haha,is so sad to see that scene...Sigh,sangat terharu..probably the best thing happen to my life was actually meeting him..He had actually change me...from someone to a better persom....I can remeber the first day i met him.At first,wasnt close to him.thought all the scholars were damn cocky.But never judge the book by its cover.I grew closer to them and especially wafi and hana.We were like families....Anyway,wafi,if you reading this....thanks for everything..Nasihat kau,the memories....Sigh,is really sad to see you go.But hey,canberra and sydney is near only.Thanks man...Anyway,tired...Wanna sleep.Chow guys